In those first days
those were my worst days
when everything fell apart
and I didn’t know how to put it back together
At first I thought
if I could just not breathe
then it wouldn’t hurt
But my body knew what I was doing
and protected itself by crying out
So I clenched my teeth
so no sound could issue through them
And my heart found out
It made me blackout
So my body could be
Then I got wise
and I closed my eyes
and I laid down
still
So still that my breath wouldn’t ripple the air around me
though my heart beat strong
So Still
death seemed like a place I had already been
and a place that I belonged
So still that the world around me
went on in fast forward
and I stayed where I was
Still
LMT04162018
